I'm sorry, you keep saying 'I'm a flaming hypocrite', 'such is the nature of my addiction', 'we're fallen'. it came out as boasting, but now I think it's just self-flagellation. I'm glad you're striving to be better, but I believe it works best when you're affirmative towards your goals. all this... hopelessness is quite depressing. but I guess that's part of the price that you have to pay for having your sins pardoned. I've seen lots of 'religious' people treating the Holy Communion like it was an amnesty. you know, like they were taking a shower. they confessed, their sins went down the drain, so they feel free to sin even more like there's no tomorrow. I'm sure you know the kind. (un)fortunately, I'm deprived of such comfort. my conscience is much more demanding of me than gods themselves, it seems, as it refuses to forgive my mistakes until I effectively manage to learn from them. well, at least my imperfections won't drag me to hell.
I'm just being honest with myself and others. I know too many Christians that either pretend they're perfect, or do the latter and act like they can do whatever they want the whole week, then go to church Sunday morning to make up for it. You're right about the type, and those drive me absolutely bonkers. They're completely missing the point
. They're the reason I get upset about this kind of stuff, because I don't want to be lumped in with them.
As for imperfections dragging me to hell, that's what that Jesus chap is for. We
may be broken, but he makes intercession for us.
Dank, after seeing Lara impaled on that spike... sheeeeeeeesh. They did
amp it up, didn't they? I'm a bit more trepidatious about it than I was. I'll find a way to play it cheaply, but I certainly won't be paying full price.